i like today's sermon --- restoring the stolen properities! i was so touched with this simple message and so grateful to have mr Jim at bethel today. my mind was in deep thought thru out the sermon, my heart was aching towards the end of the sermon and my eyes were wet when he explained why he preach the message today.

it takes a lot to make a proclaimation! uphold Godly value is a MUST and it requires so much wisdom to seek a way out of the earthly standards. The beauty of being a teacher is to pray for my kids. Recently, i discovered ways to help my kids to redirect to God. The next challenge is to go a step further ... this would require me going against rules set. Have to pray for wisdom n favor!

despite the weather, the attendance was excellent! the auditorium was filled entirely. those who came in big groups were asked to take circle seats. everyone is fanning. Obviously there's something wrong will the aircon. Pastor Chng has jokingly said, "it must be the fire of the Holy Spirit" ... haha

Super Week!

i had a SUPER week 5 ... it kicked off with a rush rush Mon and ended with a rush rush Fri! brought kids to RJC for doodle sessions on both days n followed by meeting with outing comm. on top of this, 2 teachers i supported were on 2 days MC so i have to take over their teaching role ... recently i have been very used to take over a particular class and it's really very comforting when i heard 1 of the boy comment that he prefers me over the other teacher. hehe ...

yesterday ... aka SUPER Fri cos attend the Prayer Conference at Tampines in the evening. was still contemplating whether to attend or not but in the end decided to go. this's partially due to a comment my mum made ...

the journey was surprisingly smooth n was in time for praise & worship. i like the lead singer. pretty n has good vocal! i like mr Jim's sense of humor although i dun think he is exceptionally impressive! anyway i will see him again tml n also anticipate a lot of ppl to crowd to Aljunied tml morning! 

just receive notice that someone going on 2 days mc next week n thus, i got to take over her teaching role ... i somehow sense that i will become a subject teacher very soon! Praise the LORD!!! haha 

The unsettled mind

i finally has acknowledged my unsettled mind. this's after so many mths of denial, pretence & ignorance that i finally have to come face-to-face with it. what makes this more complicated is our differences and my lack of courage to seek the answer. what if it's a No? haiz ...

toying with my thoughts in wilderness doesnt seems wise ... yet, i dun dare to challenge my faith. and now that i'm writing this entry, i'm entertaining my unsettled mind again. haiz ... "our spirit is high but our flesh is weak" ... now i understand what this means!

think i need to return to similar condition as dec 08 where my mind is so focused on 1 objective and no room for choice. this's perhaps is the only thing i can celebrate in the midst of so many hair-pulling events. this's how i was blessed. my God has a good sense of humor!

3 letters

here're 3 letters i have longed wanted to write. if not becos of my last round  of 1200 race, i wouldnt have drag this long. anyway i decided to write n mail these letters out immediately after i submit my assignment.

Letter to Mr J

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thank you for the wisdom. without it, i wouldnt know how much i need you. it seems like the mystery is starting to surface. i hope this's not my imagination. as i'm in this process of preparation, may you cont to empower, enlighten and enrich me as well as the people around me.

Letter to hao xin ren

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thank you for those nite trips. if i got a chance to meet your dad, i will thank him wholeheartedly for his ever-fulfilling fatherly love cos with this, we wouldnt have so much fun. heehee ...

it's indeed not a easy to be hao xin ren n as the saying goes "好心有好报", you'll b greatly blessed. for example, found the thing which u urgently needed at the most unexpected moment. haha ... so dun be dishearted and cont to be hao xin ren even though long-lost friends will just POP out from nowhere.

Letter to Mr XYZ

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despite all my efforts to try to trace you, i still have no clue who u r. perhaps your hammering skill is so good that it outwit my strong analytical thinking and logical reasoning skill! although i dun know who u r, i can conclude that u're a very daring person cos not many people dare to challenge my dearest spanny's barking at wee hours. even so, i do not at all look up to you. 

anyway i strongly advise u to go get a clock n the next time u want to hammer, pls check the time. if a clock doesnt help, i advise u to go get a phone n the next time u want to hammer but dun know how to read time, u can call the police for advise. if u dun find the above helpful, i also dun know what else i can help you ... or mayb u shld just bury your hammer somewhere so that if i manage to find u, i wouldnt use it to hammer u!

Showing Love thru Action

1 of the many reasons i enjoy reading newsletter from World Vision is to receive devotion from various WV staff. in the latest entry, the writer end his entry with James 2:18 - But someone will say," You have faith; I have deeds." Show me your faith without deeds, and I show you my faith by what I do. (http://www.worldvision.org.sg/st_devotion.php#start)

today, someone threw me a question, "shouldnt it be compulsary that all Christians must be in church on good Fri?" ... it is more than a routine that Christians attend church service. this's not the only thing that differential a Christian from others. In fact, there are many non-Christians who visit church as well.

growing in Christ requires walking closely with God. i've know this for a long long while ... recently, i've learnt the importance to express love thru action. therefore, i went tomb cleaning with my family n help in all ways i can n not compromise the don'ts of Christians. as well as this good fri holiday, i choose to go away with colleagues. 

i'm grateful for those precious moments that i can spend quality time with my love ones. in the process of showing love thru action, sacrifice is inevitable n i entrust these onto the Lord, who will usually provide a way out for me.