A joke

as mentioned in previous post abt celebrating teachers' day and birthday, i received a stalk of rose and a bouquet of carnation from 2 students and the other stalk of rose from Amos. he gave this to me last nite. i ask him why he gives me flower cos it could b for my birthday or teachers' day but it was neither nor as it's to celebrate for my water baptism.

i have a joke regarding my water baptism to share ... actually last nite is PL d&d. i told my asst principal that i cant attend due to water baptism. she admits that this's more impt that d&d n then she ask me where is it, when is it and which church i'm from. i guess she must have find it weird that water baptism on a fri evening or even think that i'm from some cult group ... hahaha

last nite i got a sweet surprise from my dear friends. they came to surprise me with cake, present and card. spanny welcome them in her very special way n think spanny surprise them more than they surprise me ... hahaha

anyway i really want to thank the girls for the effort n glad that u found your way ... heehee ... the cake is very nice. my mum likes it. my bro's maid likes it. spanny likes it too ... heehee

Celebrations!!!

this morning i experienced a short moment of frame when i step out of the office ... cards, gifts and flowers are presented to me ... i suddenly feel that i'm some superstars ... hahaha

some kids are really cute and shy when they give their present. i have a boy who baked choco chips cookies for the teachers and packed it nicely in boxes and flowers for each female teacher. another boy prepared a lot of presents for every teachers, including his mum who hold quite high rank in school ... hahaha

i only manage to bring the flowers n cookies home and there'r still 3 bags of present on my table. i seriously need to go in early on next tues to take photo and if possible open some presents so that i can thank the kids personally.

n what make today so special is of cos me celebrating Teachers' Day cum birthday lor ... hahaha ... i was joking with my friends that i've never experienced so much fun for previous birthdays and i cannot deny that my 'kidnap list' is getting longer n longer ... heehee

deeper in love

There is a longing only You can fill
A raging tempest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord to know You as I'm known
Drink from the river that flows before Your throne

Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love

everytime i sang this song during cell, i will feel like tearing cos i can hear God's calling ... calling me to come closer to Him n then i will reflect ... how can i love the Lord more and more ... and the answer is obvious. i'm glad that i have finally accomplished His calling. the experience is very special n unique, which words cant describe, but i know it's from Him.

it's a very small and cozy gathering n i want to thank my cell members, jack n fay for attending. i want to thank God for another miracle revealed thru this event. it's truely amazing how He make peoples' lives crossed.

5 more days to meeting mr J

5 more days ... thanks Jasmin for the reminder ... heehee

i had a good chat with 1 of the pastor yesterday n he gave me a long list of things to reflect upon ... actually i wasnt quite comfortable talking to him and thank God that everything turn out to be good.

yesterday was a wonderful day ... pris n i went recee for T biz and had a few new discoveries and also had a good short chat abt our expectations on the team and things we do. this's the 1st time we're so close. as i recalled, i always know pris n see her singing on stage but hardly talk to her. even when we were in C last yr, where we're so physically-close, we didnt talk much.

thru these little projects, i hope we can 'iron sharpen iron', to be stretched beyond what we have for mr J.

i have mentioned abt my students in a couple of my previous entries and i really want to thank God for nice, adorable students whom i always encounter. most of these students arent even taught by me, yet a relationship can be foster over a short 30 min recess break or such.

there are 2 P5 students (1 girl, 1 boy) who will stick to me during recess time. whenever they reach the canteen, they will look me n sit either beside or opp me. if there's anyone already sitting near me, they will find their way to squeeze thru ...

whenever the girl is sitting beside me, she will somehow have 'headache' and then her head will start to fall towards the direction of my shoulder ... and whenever i return to sch from MC, she will tell me she will die if she dun see me for a day ... but i was also told by my buddy teacher that she does this to all teachers who respond to her ... hahaha

as for the boy, he was transfer to the sch ard 2 mths ago. i still remember that when he 1st came, he was very quiet ... always eat quietly during recess but actually he is a very chatty n active boy ... btw his IQ is 130 and an average person is ard 100 so he is a very smart boy ... too smart to be in a foundation class.

i really see favor for this boy ... i cant explain why i like him n also dun know since when we get so close ... thru a casual conversation during recess, i found out that he's attending a church which doesnt have a good reputation n i felt disturbed abt it ...

i feel prompted to do something but i dun know how ... guess i have to call mr J for help already ...

Counting down ...

hey Mr J, it's 19 aug. i hope You didnt forget our date? arent u excited? i dun care whether You're excited or not, i just want to tell You, i'm very very excited and awesomely-filled with thrill, joy and peace!!! Grant me LOVE, please ... i want to be filled with that overflowing love that's of You and from You so that i can shower all those whose cross my path.

counting down patiently ... 10 more days

Dialogue with Mama

Dialogue 1 (Over dinner)

Me: Mum, you know what ... the Royal Thai Princess visited my school last week.
Mum: Oh ... his father is who?
Me: Aiyo ... of cos the king lah ... u will see his photo everywhere u go in BBK. They visited us cos they intend to open an autism sch in Thailand.
Mum: Oh ... Thailand also have autism children huh ...
Me: Of cos!!!!!!!


Dialogue 2 (Watching 7pm News)

Me: Wow ... President Nathan is in China leh. I saw him shaking the hands of the table tennis players
Mum: Oh ... why does he has to go China? Isnt the match held in S'pore?
Me: ... ... ...

Dialogue 3 (just before the game starts)

Me: The game is starting soon ... who do u think will win?
Mum: I dun know
Me: I think it's China lah ... they're world champion mah
Mum: Oh ... then why do they still want to compete?
Me: Speechless ... ... ... and nearly faint!!!

so happy that i finally have a chance to dine with my mum. it's a busy week and in fact busy weeks for the past xxx weeks and i either eat out or have rush rush dinner at home. as a result, there isnt much opportunity to have quality time chatting with my mum.

if u have seen my mum, u may find her very cute and i want to assure you that she's cute ... hahaha

last nite i told her abt my kids. they have completed psle oral and more is coming soon. the students and parents r feeling very anxious but the teachers r feeling even more pressured because some parents used the wrong tactic and the kids turn out to b worse. so teachers have to undo the wrong things the kids suffer at home + handling those unrealistic requests and expectations from parents.

it's really not easy which also explain y very few ppl in sch wants to take p6 class ... i told my mum, if given a choice to choose which class to teach next yr, i will still take p6 class ... n she immediately ask me if i will get more pay raise for taking p6 class which i dun see the link ... hahaha

anyway i enjoy teaching p6 cos i like the process of teaching them those concepts that they didnt pick up in p4/p5 and seeing them from dun know to know, it's a very satisfying process ... the other reason is becos at p6, they have build their awareness to a certain level so it's easier to talk sense to them, yet sometimes they will pretend that they dun know so i will also pretend n play along with them ... it's so fun to talk and play with them as if we're friends n not the student-teacher relationship. i can see that they enjoy it too ...

even at p6, they're still very cute and tell u a secret ... ... ... i actually have a 'kidnap' list which contains all the cute cute students that i want to bring home and my list is ALWAYS getting longer n longer ... hahaha ... it's a common joke i crack with my PL colleagues ... i must have gotten cute-ness from my mum ... hahaha

Martha-ing

days ago, i mentioned to a group of friends that i see myself like 'martha'. since then, i have been very puzzled how this word pop-up in my mind under such situations but i believe there's a reason ...

this afternoon, i receive a phone call reprimanding me abt those things i shldnt have done. i was extremely discouraged after that. frankly, it's actually not my responsibility to be even involve but out of goodwill, i helped n ended up with such ... i could have pretend or act blur but i didnt n why couldnt ppl think or see the effort n kindness i have extended?

this's not the 1st n only incident. in fact, there were a few recently n once i was so affected that i want to miss service ... i've tried many methods to regulate and modulate within myself so that i dun hurt others n harm myself and it's not easy! today while i'm walking from the home to bus stop, i recalled abt my role i've mentioned days ago --- martha, and was immediately comforted when realised the similarities we have ... i guess the solution of my struggles is in bible n NOT human methods

Save me or him?

i do not want to deny that heart-gripping experience and i have to cast it away. i have to keep my eyes on Him n see this as a process of preparation ... have faith n be patience ... in the midst of this, i'm glad that i told her that little secret to our friendship before she set off on sun morning ... God's angels encamping around you, my dear friend.

watched Batman just now with fang, mp n shuling. i find the movie okok only ... nearly 2.5 hour and some parts of the movie can be tighten ... although it didnt make me fall asleep, my mind was disengaged into tml work.

while we are debating whether to save rachel or dent, i just feel that this is a show abt human heart n mind, which can b easily directed by a devil's voice or controlled within a righteous man ...

life is full of dillemas and struggles ... if i'm batman, i will save dent too cos this life can save even more lives while the consequence of saving rachel is 2 broken hearts ... n i'm glad that so many ppl will choose to save me instead ... hahaha

n then i seriously think there's no need to spend so much time n effort to debate about every role, move n decision in the movie cos it's afterall just a movie :-)

I will Run to You

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You, to Your words of Truth
Not by might not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race, till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

The voice from above

something is gripping my heart very tightly since last nite ... actually i already felt a slight grip on sat nite but was too tired at that moment. i urgently need to hear that voice from the above. Oh Lord, please grant me the wisdom.

i have finally completed my work report for CIA and really thanks fay for helping out on the video editing else i dun think i can have a good nite rest tonite cos my colleagues are still struggling with their video editing. so happy that it's all done n over though it's only the pre report. men, i owe you 1!

after completing this, i will have to divert my attention to other stuff ... dun know why there's always not enough time n my room is in a total mess. by the grace of God, jialing didnt faint when she was here yesterday to study for her forthcoming test. she finally met spanny n had a good time with spanny ... or shld it be the other way round??? heehee

good to see jialing again as it has been a while since we were so close ...

Loren Cunningham

ever since i cant attend his thurs nite rally weeks ago, i felt very very very sad and till now, whenever i see or hear his name, i still have that urge of banging my head against the wall ... i dun know when then i will get over it ...

yesterday i receive a book from 'someone'. the author is no other except Loren Cunningham. oh NOOOOOO!!! of cos i didnt bang my head cos i dun want to be sued by management of vivo city lor. the person who pass me the book told me her expectation n deep in my heart, i told myself, "where got time?!?!?!" ... hahaha

but hor ... i tell u a secret hor ... ... ... last nite before i slept, i read a few pages and and and and and ... i totally hooked, which made me more more more disappointed that i missed his rally!!! but then i realised that i no longer have the thought of banging my head leh ... heehee

anyway the title of the book is "Daring to live on the Edge. The adventure of Faith and Finances" ... 1 of the reasons i'm hooked to this book cos it provides the answer to a struggle that i'm going thru since mths ago.

i will share my learnings from this book in our regular meetings ... although this's one of the expectations stated, i will still do so even if i'm not told

Amazed and Amused

a lost lamb who received the wisdom to reach its destination
a surprise which was described as scary,
a visit that turned out to be a consultation session,
a pressing question with an extraordinary conclusion,
an intend of love that lead to an offer of love --- video editing.

everything just fit nicely together to form a beautiful picture.

Amazing. this's truely amazing! For those with prefect 6/6 eyesight cant envisage such wonders.
Amusing. this's truely amusing! For those who score 180+ for the IQ test cant explain such wonders.

if u want to be amazed and amused, do below:
1) put on the yellow & black outfit + your nerdy black-frame specs
2) let down your shoulder-length hair
3) count from 1 to 10 000 in the shortest possible way
4) extend your long arms for hugging
5) siblings with 'good' photography skill

all the 5 conditions above must be fulfilled otherwise do below ...

love God for God is love!